Returning to myself

Returning to myself

I haven’t journaled in several days, and whenever that happens, I get a little crazy (scattered, unfocused, anxious). So why do I not write when I know it’s good for me? Well, why don’t I exercise or meditate when I know those things are good for me? 

I have many excuses for not doing the things I say I want to do: I’m too busy, other things are more important (like taxes), I don’t feel like it today but I’ll do it tomorrow, I’m not in the mood, I’m too tired, I’m too hungry, I’m too distracted.

What I’m really saying is that I don’t have time (want to take the time) to be with myself, to take care of myself, to sit with my own thoughts and feelings for two minutes. It can be scary to do the things you want to do. A voice may appear that says, “You’re being selfish” or “You’re not being productive”. But if we don’t prioritize taking care of ourselves, who will?!

Luckily, every day is a new opportunity to do the things we really want to do. Today I went for a long walk. Back home, I meditated for 5 minutes, and then I wrote in my journal for 5 minutes. Who doesn’t have 5 minutes to sit and just breathe? Who doesn’t have 5 minutes to check in with yourself?

The journal is so forgiving, always welcoming you back like a lost friend. As Burghild Nina Holzer puts it, “…it is possible to return to myself, to return to this flow, at any time, anywhere, even for just a short time span.”

Write for 5 minutes, checking in with yourself. What’s going on with you today?



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